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Sunday, October 7, 2012
Birch Bay, Washington, August 2012
I really wanted to have my new blog up and rolling by October.
But then life happened.
My husband went on a week-long business trip.
Then another week-long business trip.
I said "yes" to another grantwriting client.
I probably should have said "no."
The Jewish New Year came.
I thought a lot about my grandfather.
In my writing group, I wrote a list of things I remember about him.
I cried when I tried to read it.
Maybe I'll post it here someday.
I mean there - on my new blog.
Which will be coming soon.
Sometime in October, I swear!
For now, I'm cooking and running and running around and food shopping (because it suddenly seems that we never have any yogurt in our house) and grantwriting grantwriting grantwriting.
I'd kind of rather be writing writing writing.
But no one's paying me to write write write.
Life feels like it's sped up since Elan started kindergarten.
I'm waiting for it to slow down.
Even though I know that it's probably up to me to slow it down.
Since I'm most likely a big part of the reason it feels sped up right now.
I'm putting parentheses around my dreams, my hopes, my ambitions.
Like little whispers.
Does that mean they're coming closer?
Thursday, September 13, 2012
Wednesday, September 12, 2012
Monday, September 3, 2012
My baby, Emry at 3 days old, October 2010
I love birth stories, birth junkie that I am, but it's not often that one makes me laugh.
You should read this (by one of my sister's friends). Even if you're not a birth junkie, it's great.
Sunday, September 2, 2012
"Color camp" - he's the counselor, the tiles are the campers, Birch Bay, WA, August 2012
We were getting ready for the third day of kindergarten. I was in the kitchen, working on my morning checklist.
Lunch - packed.
Backpack - ready.
Bike helmets - in bike trailer.
My breakfast - in process...
Elan was munching on a bowl of Os while jumping on the couch when suddenly he announced, "I'm afraid of dying."
I finished pouring the milk into my cereal while wondering what kind of response I should have to this question. Here's what I came up with: "Oh?"
Then he followed it up with, "Is God real?"
It was a one-two punch, all before my morning coffee.
"I don't know," I said. "What do you think?"
Now he was standing on the couch, one of his favorite positions.
"I think he is, because he's in this book." He held up a copy of The Ziz and the Hanukkah Miracle, a book that recently landed in our mailbox courtesy of the PJ Library. By the way, everytime we get another (free!) Jewish-themed book from the PJ Library I always take a moment to be impressed at how organized we Jews are. My library of Jewish children's books would probably number about 1 book if it were up to me to stock it.
I thought about asking my giant-eyed child whether he thought the Ziz - an enormous yellow bird who, in the course of the book, ropes the moon and tries to tug it down from the sky - is also real. But I didn't want to shut down his train of thought. Elan's not the kind of child who constantly busts out questions and observations about The Big Things in life.
"If he is real, when I die, I'll ask him for a new life," he said.
I put my cereal bowl down on the table and sat next to him on the couch.
"I think that's a nice idea," I said.
"You're going to die before me, right, Mama?"
I made reassuring noises.
"But you're not going to die until I'm a grown-up," he declared.
More reassuring noises.
"Like 22 or 23 or 24 or - yeah! - 25. You won't die until I'm 25 years old."
And then, with my fate and his all settled, he went back to jumping on the couch.
Thursday, August 30, 2012
Berkeley, August 2012
I am not sure that I have ever had such an unproductive day.
At least, not on a day when I'm supposed to be productive.
Worry, worry, fret
Scheme, talk, scheme
Vent, rant, process, chat
Crave a nap, crave a nap, crave a nap
Second day of kindergarten.
Am I heading right, or going left?
Where am I supposed to be right now?
What am I forgetting?
It's going okay for Elan. Like I said, I think he's more ready for this than I am.
As for me, I've been trying to focus on work while really counting the minutes till Zumba. For about the last three hours.