I didn't think so.
I'm not so much brave as desperate. As I mentioned recently, swimming is an awesome mind-cleanser for me, and Elan is putting us through the wringer, so I need a good mind-cleanser right about now. And the bathing suit I wore all through my pregnancy was starting to put me at risk for indecent exposure so...
I started with one-pieces. I thought they would be more flattering. But this was an athletics store, so they were all Speedo and TYR and no no no no no.
Surprisingly, my regular fave the 2-piece still felt more comfortable, and looked better, "better" being a very relative term here.
In the dressing room, I kept telling myself 9 months on, 9 months off, and laughing. I laughed a lot, actually. Out loud. This crazy body, with its unaccustomed pads and rolls and ripples and soft spots where the muscle might be hiding deep in there somewhere - it doesn't even feel like my body. I guess that's the main difference between last time and this time. This time, it doesn't feel quite so personal. Mostly, I just wish I felt stronger - less wibbly-wobbly and injury-prone. I've been taking walks with Emry in a front carrier in part to slowly strengthen my core, which is not the steely core you want when you've got 2 kids, one of them giving you the run-around. It's more like a rubbery core right now. Rubber that's melted...
You get the idea.
Anyway, I've got this guy:
And he's so very worth it.
love this post! and the rubber will turn back to steel! promise! it took me a full year, but the body is an amazing thing!
ReplyDeleteActually since Jonas was born May 11th, I kind of had to so's I could take the other 2 to the pool. I did indeed buy a new bathing suit after he was born. I just didn't feel like flopping around in my pre-kid or maternity suits. So I got a very modest 2 piece (that covers all the belly) from Target. Janna calls it a "mom swim suit" but I think it looks kind of vintage. And it hides everything! :)
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